Going Dark

the magic of Pisces / eclipse / merc retrograde seasons

my loves. What a time to be alive. It’s blizzarding in NYC and I am gobsmacked. I’ve been looking out the window on and off for hours and the snow just keeps on coming. Comforting and absurd, I feel like I’m living in a snow globe: life on pause as the world rearranges itself around me.

Right now the theme of PAUSE is showing up for me in many many ways. Maybe it’s the same for you?

For starters, it’s Pisces season. The Sun entered Pisces on Feb 18 and will float through this liminal sign until Mar 20, 2026. As I wrote last year,

Pisces season is the dissolution of the individual. It is a return to Oneness. A journey back to the fertile void, the womb, the space of infinite possibility.

Ruled by both Jupiter (Traditional) and Neptune (Modern), Pisces season is a time for expansive, blessed dreams and spiritual connection. Unlike Sagittarius, Jupiter’s other baby, Pisces is not a time of dramatic action or outward exertion.

During Pisces season we are tasked with sitting in amniotic fluid, holding onto our dreams and visions, while the 3D rearranges itself around us. In this space, we can be nourished and given the last-minute tools we need to burst back into Life with a full tank.

The waiting, the sitting, the holding of the Vision can be deeply uncomfortable. We get impatient, wanting to rush the process along. Wanting to do do DO something in order to feel in control.

But that’s not the way Nature works: there is always always the cocoon, the gestation, the Winter before Spring. The more we resist, by trying to expedite or operate around this sacred cycle, the more unprepared we are when our Spring arrives.

We too, are Nature; deep rest and rejuvenation are necessary if we want to continue evolving.

Knowing that this waiting is for our benefit doesn’t necessarily make it any easier to endure. In the US, we have been trained in our Capitalist system to preference immediacy over patience. To resist boredom. To distract ourselves out of self-reflection, out of feeling, out of Listening.

We have forgotten how to collaborate with the Universe because we have lost our ability to get quiet and connect with our Souls. Our Trust Muscles have atrophied because we have forgotten to work them amidst the noise of now now now, do do do.

And so for me, Pisces season is time to PAUSE.

If you’ve been following along the past few months, you’ll know I launched my group program CO/LAB in November 2025 and have been in the (new-to-me and often uncomfortable) process of selling spots for the first cohort.

I approached sales in fits and starts. I spent many days forcing and muscling my way through the discomfort and uncertainty of putting my work out into the world with the hope that someone would buy.

My self-worth was wrapped up in my sales sheet. I was confused. I was resentful. I was excited. I was validated. It was a rollercoaster. I cried a lot and then picked myself back up and tried again.

I believed — and still believe! — in the program so deeply that I continued trying to sell even when I was exhausted. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it flopped. And normally, that would all be fine. Normally

But 2025 was excruciating. Exhausting. I was chronically ill, my Grandma died, it was my first year of full-time entrepreneurship. My identity, my foundation, my heart were ROCKED. And that’s just on a personal level. Collectively, we experienced so much more. And I never stopped working. I would give myself a day here and there to grieve, but then it was back to work. I don’t know that I was fully “burnt out” — but I was definitely operating from a state of depletion.

During the sales process, I reached out to Antonia Dolhaine with the intention of hiring her as my Supervisor for CO/LAB (therapists need therapy; coaches need coaching, etc). We did a few sessions of her signature depth coaching — which I highly, highly recommend — and it became apparent that my heart, body, and mind were begging for an extended break so that we could refuel.

As these revelations started pouring in, I realized I needed to cancel the program start. After months and months of creation, of refinement, of praying and trusting… I knew I had to call it off. I felt like a bride at the altar who realizes that she’s wearing the wrong dress.

The wedding is still on, but I need some time to change first.

So I reached out to the sweet angel babes who had signed up and let them know what was going on. I referred them to other practitioners if they were looking for support urgently. Everyone was lovely and understanding and kind. I am so deeply grateful for their loving grace ♡.

And now?

Now we Pause.

We slow things waaaay down, moving just 5% slower as Maia Ben would say.

The Year of the Fire Horse has started, yes, but in Western astrology we are at the beginning(ish) of Pisces Season — the last sign of the Zodiac before our astrological new year — and it’s a time of gestation, darkness, and nourishment.

Mercury Retrograde started on Thursday, February 26 and will continue it’s backward spin til Friday, March 20. Take this as your permission slip to move like molasses these next few weeks. Technology, communication, travel are likely going to be on the fritz. Practice patience. Reflect on: what is all this rushing around for?? Where is the sense of urgency and go go go energy coming from? Good things take time. Be gentle with yourself and others as we are forced to slow down.

We are also in the middle of a powerful Eclipse portal, with our next lunar eclipse taking place on Tuesday March 3 at 13° Virgo. Another invitation to release control and spend some time evaluating where you might be committed to old narratives out of habit. As Dr. Clara likes to say, Don’t let familiarity be your treasure.

If you could use some support making sense of this astrology jargon as it relates to you and your life, I’ve juuust reopened my astrology books with a brand new reading called YOUR DREAMS ARE A GIFT. It’s a blend of birth chart + transit reading, with my signature blend of optimism, practicality, and sensitivity. Nothing would make me happier than supporting you and you dreams as you navigate these choppy cosmic seas.

There is much to pause, reflect, and reconfigure before the astrological new year begins on March 20. If you’re not feeling fully equipped to rush ahead, don’t force it. Follow Pisces’ lead. Take a bath. Lay in bed and listen to album front to back. Read poetry aloud to yourself or a lover. Romanticize and be present in this now moment, because before you know, time will change.